"I'm tired of being the one who cheers up people when they're sad; because when I'm the one in need of someone, NOBODY's there tomake me feel better."

Dear Friend of mine,

Hello again, you may have forgotten about me, but it's me, Nobody.

Once more I am invisible. Meaningless. Worthless.

I am the one who silently suffers while I watch helplessly at your own suffering.

I want to hold you and listen to every single word of how you feel.

The pain, the self-hatred, the loneliness, and the good things to.

I want to be someone you can turn too, but I feel you have forgotten me.

Yet despite this empty forgotten feeling, I cannot help but look at the truth of it all- everything is my fault.

Maybe not every situation was caused by me, and maybe I didn't actually have a part in it,

however,

I didn't act. I did not reach out to you so you could see me.

I didn't want to bother you or ruin your day even more. And you have Becca. Wonderful, honest, beautiful Becca.

She is the real friend,

And I am just a shadow.

I crave to be somebody, but I can't seem to get it right, in anything.

I love you and if I could take everything you felt upon myself,

I would in a heartbeat.

But I am Nobody.

I am only an annoying mosquito that can be swated away,

Only to return and hover near you.

I'm sorry I am nothing